{Thoughts of 2012}

Surrender is the kind of word that provokes two reactions: disgust and joy.  It’s viewed as a submission, an act that makes you a doormat.  To me?  It’s a choice.  It’s not about surrendering to authority, surrendering all of yourself to nothingness.  It’s not about losing and making yourself a loser.  It’s not just an acceptance of despair.

Instead, I think of the sign language.  It’s a beautiful sign.  You bring your hands — first closed, then palms out — into an act of letting go.  Letting go of what holds you down.  Letting go to make room for better.  Giving yourself up into a beautiful offering of possibilities.  Surrender; that voluntary act that gives way to wisdom, knowledge, and hope.  Surrender not your beauty, but rather surrender blind despair.

Explore is a word that has nothing but possibilities.  I see so many possibilities.  Explore writing styles, explore meanings, explore your purpose, explore your abilities, explore pathways, explore nature, explore sexuality, explore your relationship with your spouse, explore Jesus and the infinite of God.

It’s a word that is navigational and developmental all at once! What you explore, you take the chance of developing.  And the best part? It’s never-ending.  I find that I look forward to always falling in love with my husband.  I explore his personality, his quirks, his opinions that will at times change, and he explores me in ways I know no one else will.  So, I fall in love again and again.  I surrender to that certainty, to that joy.

 
Explore… and surrender.  Two of the words that I chose to define and develop the year of 2012 for me.  The words that will be put to use for the development of this blog.

I hope you will join me!

Porch Queen